Recollections
March 31st, 2006, 1:09 pm
I was reading through my old blog posts, and I realized that after bad times are over, we tend to downplay them in our memory - now, that wasn’t so bad, was it? - which is why we stumble into the same mistakes over again; quite simply we have short-term memories when it comes to hurt and pain.� Or maybe it’s just me.
So anyway there I was reading my 2004 blog entries in order to reorganize the imported Blogger posts into Wordpress categories; frankly I was appalled by how many I labelled as ‘Rants’ and ‘Love’ and both in the same category.� I’d forgotten how much pain I went through.� Will I never learn? :/
After that I proceeded through my mobile’s message inbox to ruthlessly root through and delete messages that I had no more use for keeping. I closed my eyes and hardened my heart and deleted about ten off my phone, but to my own disappointment there are still a few I can’t bear to delete just yet; I still find myself scrolling through once in awhile to reread them and quietly crumble inside just a little bit more. There’s nothing like reliving lost happy times to remind yourself how much you hurt.
On to happier things - in a defiant rebellion against my Working Woman Syndrome weight gain, I obeyed my cravings and finished almost half a pack of Ruffles Texas Style BBQ chips.� My absolute favorite chips in the world.
Fruits for lunch to make up for my indulgence :)