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Man this cracks me up. At first the notion of Charlotte Church and Amy Winehouse singing together was amusing – then the notion of them singing Michael Jackson was even funnier.

Then I clicked play.

Aw man, Amy. I don’t even know what she’s singing :/

I think the funniest is the expression on Charlotte’s and the backup singers’ faces. They look really, really pissed off, and Amy?

She’s just piss drunk!

Okay FINE. I ADMIT IT.

So my cat is a LITTLE BIT FAT.

:(

Do they sell treadmills for kitties?

First I had a shitty class with the naughty class, interrupted by my own form class being unbelievably cheeky – walking numerous times past the classroom to look and wave, then after I banish them to their classroom they stand IN their classroom and do synchronized full arm waves across the block to my class. Got so pissed off trying to handle the naughty class and my own kids can pull this kinda stunt. Maybe I’m always too nice to them. So I hauled my form class back for a harsh lecture.

Then I had to stay for a meeting where barely anyone turned up and the boss was understandably upset, and I had to chase people down and play devil’s advocate.

Then I went for my dental appointment and shared the waiting room with a boy who was terrorizing his younger sister, and I didn’t know if i should have spoken up.

Then I went to pick up my cheongsam and the tailoring seemed to be a bit snugger than I wanted, but I thought it would be ok, because I mean, yay, cheongsam tailored to me! So I just took it and went.

Then after hours of shopping at Carrefour, we ended up spending a
bit more than C liked. He looked grumpy and since I’m such a porcupine, without knowing he wasn’t angry at me, I got annoyed because I didn’t know what was wrong. And then the travellator wasn’t working. We took the lift, and on the way, C accidentally rammed into the back of my ankle with the full laden trolley, ripping off the skin. So I was limping and in pain and madder than a wet hornet.

When we got to the car, I suddenly realized that my cheongsam bag was missing. Panicked. Ran back upstairs, retraced steps, begged the info counter to check, but to no avail. My cheongsam must have been literally lifted out of the trolley when we weren’t looking.

Drove back to the house in copious tears and silence. At the carpark when we opened the van, groceries fell out and we broke a bottle. Cleaning the house actually sort of made me feel a bit better after awhile and sweet C offered to buy me a new cheongsam. But I distinctly remember that the one I bought was the last one they had…

It did not go well for me today.

I’ve only been a teacher for one and a half years, but I’m perilously close to losing the joy in it I used to have. I think it’s just cuz I’m so busy with other things this year, and especially this semester, that I’m getting anxious and crabby and dread going to work.

Maybe I just need the wedding to be over and to settle into married life so I can go back and concentrate on being a good teacher. I get so grumpy easily, even at C, and I’m not being the best fiancée or the best teacher.

I’m tired all the time and have no spirit or passion for going into class. I’m dreading going to school and am super behind on my marking – but when I’m not marking I’m settling other stuff or I’m so tired I just knock out and waste an hour or two on sleeping. And when I’m not getting enough sleep, I lash out at my baby and I get upset because I’m still tired and haven’t gotten any work done. :(

I am now eagerly waiting for the week of the wedding so I can just stop thinking about work and concentrate on one thing. I’m crap at multitasking :( book check, mark keying in, getting colleagues to cover for me while I’m on leave so that the kids don’t miss out on lessons… It’s really exhausting. Please pray for me :(

I need more time and more energy…

I am dying of boredom in this meeting.

I love being in a Christian school and I love working in an environment where I don’t have to hide my faith – quite the opposite, in fact. But it seems to me that the pastors attached to my school tend to be rather opaque to the fact that our school is not, in actual reality, a school filled with Christian students. And while of course I’m glad for the chance to evangelize and share my faith with nonbelievers, I too recognize the importance of tact and of not shoving my beliefs down people’s throats. And the importance, of course, of not offending people of other faiths. In my classes, whenever I talk about religion, I always, always try to bring in examples of other religions and of other races, because I don’t want to ostracize those students who are not Christians.

It seems that the pastors and pastoral staff don’t have the same idea.

I don’t think it is very nice at all to call unbelievers “goats” at morning devotion – goats that “must be led to the light” by Christian students. It’s not the first time they’ve said such things that can be misconstrued quite badly and taken in quite a bad light. I don’t feel it’s right, or in the right spirit at all. When the result is that non-Christian colleagues (80% of our staff, actually) get offended and upset and end up transferring out of our school because they find the Christian atmosphere oppressive and non-inclusive, I think it’s a real sign that we are approaching this the wrong way. A very wrong way.

And now on the heels of this, PM Lee states in the rally speech that “Christian schools must remain secular”. If we have been misusing this advantage of being able to proselytize in schools, don’t you think it’s a travesty that we’re doing such a bad job of it now? And if we are going to have such benefits scaled back, we have been wasting so much time.

I’m getting more and more tired everyday. This morning I had to put real effort into dragging myself out of bed :( so tired.

Received the first part of the wedding favors yesterday! Will be doing them up sometime next week with Miss Piggy, probably at the new house. Might ask Mr. Piggy along too. I do like showing off the new place – our first batch of Barang Barang stuff is coming tomorrow! Bed, towel rack, pouffe and our mattress from Courts are all coming tomorrow. Joy and thrills!

Kitten got the NAC scholarship. Heh heh. Rocks for her and for the parents who now get to save a bit more money.

This weekend is P’s and KM’s wedding. It’s like they’re our batch mates or something – same marriage prep class and getting married within three weeks of each other! She’s been helping us a lot with house tips as well – we got our bedside tables from a teak store that they recommended to us. Aah so excited for them :)

I’m quite happy at the moment! Had a nice dinner with lovely people last night who gave us a lovely wedding gift. Yay :)

And yes, Milo and durian and Discovery Channel and MJ and Yakult are all happy things too, FB friends.

So I’ve said goodbye to my baby girl and I’m currently the only chick left in the nest. It’s a little disconcerting – I’ve never been an only child and I don’t particularly like the feeling. I miss the hubbub and camaraderie of having sibs around to disturb and natter with. Sniffle. I really miss my little girl.

YOU WILL ALWAYS BE SIX YEARS OLD TO ME, YOU HEAR ME.

24 days to go to the big day. I don’t know what I’m forgetting and I’m trying not to care so much, heh. It’s more of a gnawing, nagging feeling that I’ve forgotten something, and an unquenchable urge to micromanage our wedding on the day itself. Rawr.

I should just do what was demanded of me on hen night and stop talking about the wedding altogether.

DIY wedding favors to be done this week and next :) Hope you all appreciate them. I assure you they are not like little bride and groom cookies or something. Heh heh.

Hope all the music works out too :/ I still haven’t found a recessional that we both like.

And I haven’t altered my cheongsam, and I’m not quite sure what I’m wearing for the wedding lunch, and I’m still out a pair of shoes to wear with the gown.

ARGHGHGHGHGHHHHH.

Study curtains – a bit simple, but the rest of the room has a lot of color going for it

Living room curtains – olive green, matched to one of the leaves’ color in the lampshade :D it’s actually got dark green leaves scrolling all over the curtain, can’t see from the distance

Master bedroom curtains – would you believe these are old curtains from home – I bought the new curtains from the same shop that Mom got these from – and they match the walls perfectly and just so happen to fall exactly to touch the floor. Perfecto!

Books and DVDs in the Billy!

32 day countdown!

Sofa! Fridge! Washing machine! Bookshelves! Study table! Chest of drawers! I IS HAPPYWAPPYWOO.

New gate

Billy bookcases in the study

Sofa and lamp

The Ronald McDonald corner – printer console and lamp

My poor injured toe on our new sofa