tell me about it

1. I’ve come to realise that I love : being part of a whole.

2. I’ve come to realise that I know : less than I think I do.

3. I’ve come to realise that I say: things that I don’t actually mean.

4. I’ve come to realise that I have: too much time from now to then.

5. I’ve come to realise that I have lost : my Marks and Spencer Fizzy Fish :(

6. I’ve come to realise that I hate : waking up bloody early.

7. I’ve come to realise that marriage is : something I want very much.

8. I’ve come to realise that the best : fishballs can be found right next to my office.

9. I’ve come to realise that I will always be : a little bit emo.

10. I’ve come to realise that love : is necessarily selfish

11 . I’ve come to realise that the last time I cried was : last night. Grey’s is a real tearjerker.

12. I’ve come to realise that when I wake up in the morning : the snooze button is too conveniently located next to my hand.

13. I’ve come to realise that before I go to sleep at night : I spend some time in prayer.

14. I’ve come to realise that right now : I should be doing my lesson plans.

15 . I’ve come to realise that babies : are difficult to buy plain onesies for.

16 . I’ve come to realise that I get on Facebook: every single day, yaaargh.

17. I’ve come to realise that today : will be spent in office. What holiday? What?

18. I’ve come to realise that tonight : I have date night with my baby!

19. I’ve come to realise that tomorrow : is another day at work.

20. I’ve realise that I really want : to get away.

since my last meme.

1. There’s something you’ve always dreamed of doing, but you haven’t done it because you think you lack the time, money, or support to do so. What is that something? And what are the REAL roadblocks keeping you from it?
Backpacking in Southeast Asia and Europe. It costs too much time and money – if I were going to save up money to go on a trip I’d end up going to Anfield and watching a live match.

2. Name something you would eat more of if health, cost, allergy, and caloric intake were of no concern
Genuine tiramisu. And foie gras.

3. What is the one singer/band, book/author, painting/painter or author artist/work of art that “speaks to you” most? Why?
I used to love Renoir. I loved his romantic, Impressionist style with its saturated colors and depictions of round, cherubic women and children. In terms of books, I love Jodi Picoult, Neil Gaiman and Terry Pratchett. Freya North is my guilty pleasure; Tamora Pierce is that step away from childhood fantasy that I can’t bear to take. Music? I’m solidly and proudly mainstream, both Chinese and English. I don’t do house, or acid jazz, or trance, or particularly favor indie bands.

4. If your country’s government handed you a check for $10 billion and empowered you to use that money to support a single program, cause, or organization, where would you send it?
Can I…can I keep just some of it? :( We need to buy and furnish a house :(

Okay, I’d give it to Shyam and send her to Africa to build Christian halfway houses for women and children.

5. What really, genuinely pisses you off?
Discourtesy and insincerity. Yes, I have someone in mind. No, I don’t like her at all.

6. Describe your current level of happiness and contentment in your life. Are you living the life you imagined for yourself when you were younger?
I’m satisfied. It could be better, of course – I could be prettier, healthier, richer. But I’m doing all right, and I’m not quite living the life I imagined just yet, but I will be in about a year’s time :)

I tag…whoever feels like doing this. But if you do it, leave a comment so I can read yours!

(Ironically, haven’t had any caffeine today – so maybe I’m just a natural vibrating crackhead. Hmmm.)

1. You mouse-over pictures and expect to see nametags pop up
2. You wonder who’s poked you in the last five minutes
3. You know that £130m in productivity has been lost due to Facebook
4. When another friend joins Facebook you go through everyone’s photos so you can tag her in them
5. You interrupt your blog posting to go refresh Facebook

This list will grow over the next few days. Facebook is evil.

1. Tiger Susu biscuits!!!
2. BBQ flavored Mamee
3. Random leftover bits of different types of potato chips in a Calbee can
4. Cowhead Natural Oat biscuits
5. Wang Wang rice crackers
6. Ritter Sport Corn Crisp chocolate
7. Apple strudel flavored poptart with icing
8. Campbell’s mushroom cheese crunch instant soup
9. Indomi mi goreng instant noodles
10. Chupa Chups lollipops, assorted flavas :) My favorite.
[take me there]
 

1. Heartfelt prayer
2. The smell of my lemongrass oil
3. Pokes on Facebook
4. Borrowed strength
5. Wallpaper
6. The crispy end of a curry puff
7. Eyedrops, eyedrops, eyedrops
8. The Corrs
9. Ice lemon tea
10. Phil 4:6-7

1. Have your media player handy
2. Choose one (1) song from your music library whose title starts with the first letter (or number) of your screen name
3. Repeat this process with each successive letter (or number) in your screen name until you run out of letters (or numbers)
4. Post up your results.

J – ‘解脱’ by Zhang Hui Mei Such a very sad and sweet song.

A – ‘Armenian Dances II:III. Lorva Horovel’ by Tokyo Kosei Wind Orchestra Ah the beautiful band days from sec sch. We played this for our SYF competition and got gold for it.

D – ‘Dirrty’ by Christina Aguilera Hoho. Still remember when this song came out. The MTV was scandalously scandalizing, what with chaps and red underwear and dirrty dancing

E – ‘Eat It’ by Weird Al Yankovic Incidentally, I have 21 songs that start with the word ‘Every’. And Weird Al rocks.

I – ‘I Heard A Rumor’ by Bananarama Talk about retro :P

T – ‘Teddybear’ by Toybox EH what what I really liked this song okay!!

E – ‘Elephant Love Song Medley’ by Ewan McGregor and Nicole Kidman I’m going to name my first son after Ewan :P

From Kaixin’s blog :D

Haven’t done one of these in a long time – but it’s from Hucks’ blog and I thought I’d like to do it.

Choose 10 random people from your friends list and write down your true feelings about them. Do not disclose who they are. Leave them guessing.

So since I don’t have a friends list, I’m just going to pick people at random, people whom I know read my blog. Here goes.

1. You owe me money.  Ha.
2.  I know your boyfriend cheated on you last year with another girl (for the third time since you got attached), but I didn’t tell you because the last time I did that, you stayed with him anyway.
3. I just wrote you a letter that’s five pages long!
4. I miss you and I can’t wait to graduate and go visit you!  Save some tanghulu for me!
5. I’ve always adored you and I adore you still – and you’ve always been such a light in my life.  I told you I felt like hugging you though back then I didn’t dare to, but you know, if you ever need a hug, you can always ask me (if your girlfriend doesn’t mind :D)
6. You were the only person who had the exact same timetable with me in our first semester, and I’m so damn glad it was you, because that’s how I first got to know you better.
7. You’re so emo that I have a soft spot for you because you remind me of me when I was your age.
8. You irritate me but I have no good reason for it, so I pretend that I like you.  Now you know.
9. You are the only good friend who didn’t register on my gaydar until it was too late and you found out I had this little embarrassing crush on you.  :/
10. I love you to absolute bits and beyond because you’re the mentor and older sister I’ve never had; and and and you miss me even though you’re embarrassed to admit it :D

Okay lah some of it was way too obvious to the people I’m speaking about, but if you know who you are leave a comment with the number that you think was you, and a pseudonym that you know I’ll recognize :P

Post anything that you want anonymously in my comments. A secret, a confession, a fear, a love, your opinion about me – anything. Post anonymously and honestly. Then, put this in your blog to see what your friends (and perhaps others who you don’t even realize read your blog) have to say.

Reprising this post I wrote about a year back, just because someone made a reference to it today, saying that she learned more about me in this one post than she’s known from our past four years of friendship.

Mmf.

Here goes, then.

I’m the girl you once loved.

I’m the girl who teases you for crying at the movies, while hiding my own tears from you. I’m the girl who scoffs at you for being so naive, but who privately wonders what it would be like if I’d lived a life that could have kept me as innocent as you are.

I’m the girl who doesn’t learn.

I’m the girl who takes everything personally, and shouldn’t.

I’m the girl you said was the most beautiful woman in the world. I’m the girl who never believed you, especially when you dumped me for someone else.

I’m that girl.

I’m the girl who’s been there, done that.

I’m the girl who fantasizes about being tied up, but doesn’t actually want to be, because sometimes fantasy is more fun than reality.

I’m the girl whose heart you never had, because I’m the girl you loved, and you’re the man I hated. I let you think I loved you, but really I’m the girl who despised you, and you’re the man who will never know.

I’m the girl who hurt you because someone else hurt me.

I’m the girl who’s sorry.

I’m the girl who dances in the rain.

I’m the girl who held your hair while you threw up.

I’m the girl who told you that I was happy to be by your side, but what I really wanted to do was get away from you and your petty insecurities and nasty tantrums. I’m the girl who lied to you over and over again to keep you happy. I’m the girl who left you because I finally stopped lying to myself.

I’m the girl whose hand you hold. I’m the girl whose lips you kiss.

I’m the girl who still loves teddybears and lace, sunshine flowers and pretty things. The girl who wants to dance on a beach in the moonlight with the man I love. The girl who’s been a sucker for heartbreak all her life, but who’s still determined to find love.

I’m that girl.

I’m the girl who sings in the bathroom.

I’m the girl who expected less, but got so much more.

I’m the girl who wants lilies and white ribbons at my wedding. I’m the girl who believes in true love, in the sanctity of marriage, in blessings. I’m the girl who wants to grow old with you.

If that’s who I am, then who are you?